Eating habits and daily routine

I weighed myself on the morning of 2011…94 kilos, how can someone gain 8 kilos in a period of 3 months!! I was devastated, ashamed, and shocked, that’s 6 kilos from reaching 100, what’s wrong with me? How the hell did I get here!!
This past week I am trying a different technique to control my unhealthy eating habits. I divided my day into 4 periods that cover my daily routine, each period has its own challenges and struggles.

Period 1: 9-2 working hours….challenge: inside office junk and lunch breaks
Period 2: 2-4 PM picking up toddler from mother in-law’s house…challenge: how to politely pass on offered food and dessert. My mother-in law’s cooking contains lots of fat and fried stuff.
Period 3: 4-5 PM picking up older daughter from daughter in-law’s house…challenge: stop opening the sweet cupboard. She is a great baker there is always fresh baked cookies, cakes and chocolates there. (if lunch smells good I also help myself with a bite or two or three!!)
Period 4: 5-10 PM spending time with girls, bedtime routine, and night binging. Challenge: healthy supper options for the girls, giving up TV and eating infront of it, preparing next day’s menu.

9-2 working hour period: my team eat all day long, we are 8 people cramped in a very small area and they are always munching something, there are salty snacks, cookies, pastry, and chocolates, and on lunch break someone would go out and bring junk food to the office for everyone.

Challenge Accomplished: I am so proud of myself this past week, I did not eat one single thing in the office, I only ate what t prepared at home, god it was hard the first couple of days, because I have spent years and years being an office junk food junkie, my menu included: broccoli, baked sweet potato, vegetables with spinach dip, sautéed mushrooms and an apple and orange daily.

How I survived?
1- Printed the below poster and hanged beside my desk, whenever someone comes over and asks me of I want to grab something to eat I say no thanks and point at the poster, by end of this week no one offered me anything.

2- Whenever they bring anything from the company’s cafeteria or buy a bag of chips or cookies I would go out of the office and hide in the bathroom until they finish.

3- I had to force myself to get out of bed at 5 to prepare my healthy snacks and have everything ready before my girls wake up.
Results: I am so proud of myself, and I have noticed that I have more energy and not as cranky as I used to be.

On Wednesday a colleague came back from his vacation and brought the below to the office (not one single bite :))

Next week’s challenge: mother-in-law food proof techniques.

Letting my self go after marriage

7 years ago, I made a promise to myself to never let go of myself after marriage, which is a promise I failed to keep after giving birth, it Is not only about the weight, or my appearance that I neglected, I let go of many things that were once very important to me. My reading, painting, playing my guitar, and writing in my journal, are all things I miss dearly and want back in my life. When I do find time for me I am usually too tired and exhausted that the only thing I end up doing is collapsing on the sofa, watching TV and stuffing my face with whatever is in front of me…after kids and if you work full time, YOU move to the bottom of the priority ladder…I hate what I have become, It is not me…I want to find that women again. In the past week I literally forced my self to do the following: buy two new books which I intend to read in 2011!! And I started taking vitamins daily which is helping my memory, giving more energy and staying focused. My emotions have always been part of why I binge, I am planning on using a different strategy in 2011, a strategy that revolves around being gentler with my self and taking care of my self in addition to my family.
I have a good feeling about 2011.